Itsetuhoa ja Rappiota.

Uusi runo taas...

.Itsetuhoa ja Rappiota.

Maailmankirjoihin kirjoitettujen
Kummitusten tyhjät sydämmet itkevät
Rakkauden kaipuusta.

Vampyyrit juovat tuhkaa ja oksentavat verta itseinhosta.
Tänään taivas on musta korpeista
ruumiita on mahdotonta enää laskea.

Äiti tuli kotiin. Ja meni saman tien. Olin siellä puoli yhdestä puoli viiteen, sitten tulin tänne nukkumaan. Tiedän että, jos en olisi ikinä syntynyt en olisi tuhonnut kaikkien elämää. Haluaisin niin paljon kuolla tänään.



Strange World

The only place where you can dream, living here is not what it seems.
Ship of white light in the sky, nobody there to reason why.
Here I am, I'm not really there, smiling faces ever so rare.
A let's walk in deepest space, living here just isn't the place.

Stalks of light come from the ground, when I cry there isn't a sound.
All my feelings cannot be held, I'm happy in my new strange world.
Shades of green grasses twine, girls drinking plasma wine.
A look at love, a dream unfolds, living here, you'll never grow old.

Don't you hear me call? Ooh

-The Creatures of Darkness-

Uusi runo!!

~The Creatures of Darkness~

You were on the wind
Air that I breath
Inside of me
You were the fire
You were the water
From your touch I turned into ashes
and from your kiss I losted into ocean and you suffocated me.

Jealousy, envy that I feel
Separates you and me.
We, this moment isn't real

We are lost souls in eternity
Tears into sea,
Nothing and everything.

We do not want, we do not need.
We do not own, we do not have.

World and God is dead to us
No one to protect us,
we are free and our love doesn't exist.

But greedy and stupid human like me
cries itself to sleep while thinking
What do you feel?

We are dreamers living dark times
our hopes and wishes are just whispers
that no one hears.

Vihaa ja verta.

Tässä on runo, jonka keksin eilen yöllä.

.VIHAA JA VERTA.

Ja näin minut heitettiin maailmaan,
keskelle ei mitään.
Tyhjät, epämuodostuneet kasvot tuijottavat minua
Ja täällä makaan yksin,
haavoitettuna.

Haluan liikkua ja puhua, mutta olen
pieni ja rampa.

lääkäri kantaa minut äitini syliin
ja hän kuulee heikot sydämmensykkeeni
kauhusta vapisten.
"Hyi Helvetti miten ruma ja tyhmä olento!"
Äiti kiljuu inhoten ja heittää minut sairaalan lattialle.

Vastasyntyneenä ja vertavuotavana itken kohtaloani.
Verilammikosta ja vääntyneestä selkärangasta näen tulevaisuuteeni.
Tuhat vuotta yksin, minä kasvan vahvaksi.

En syntynyt koiraksi, synnyin linnuksi,
olen vapaa, rikkimennyt ja hylätty,
minulla ei ole mitään menetettävää.

Tuo sikiö oli sinun virheesi,
mutta annan sen anteeksi
sillä tästä alkaa tulevaisuuteni.

~*Nebelhexe Lyrics*~

~*Nebelhexe - Wake To Wither*~

Wake, oh wake!
Another of these cold mornings
Fading dream
She still remembers where she's been

Wake oh wake!
Entrapped by four walls again
The shadow of time
It's slipping away again

Feels like dying
Over and over again
Feels like dying
Wake! It's always the same

My blood it has turned cold she said
I cannot feel my limbs no more
The life they call my dreams
Feels like I left my soul behind

Could I run and find
The wasted, wasted years she said
I just want to be and see,
Run free and never look back

Feels like dying
Over and over again
Feels like dying
Wake! It's always the same

Do you feel the cold?
Do you feel the pain like I do?
Do you want to be free?
Come and join me

~*Nebelhexe - Dreams of Little Girls*~

I'm waiting, so eagerly waiting
The great fair has come to town
Come on, let us hurry now
Let's forget just for a while
The great fun fair makes us smile again

All little girls catch a little glimp
Of the glossy moments of life
Keep this lovely memories
Nothing lasts for life you see
All will pass for better and worse

And the great wheel stops
The lights go out
All fairs end

There's this dreamworld, there's this innocence
If we believe
We make it all real
Life's not a fairytale
Pastime thrills will fade one day
Just like the child within
And you will stand alone

... Goddess, bless the little girls...

"Music is a spiritual journey for me. It has a great power to influence. I use this power very consciously. I want to bring across a feeling of earthly physical and sensual elements, yet also sounds that bring forth deep emotions. Music is very powerful. I hear music in my dreams - sometimes it's a song that I've heard before, and sometimes it's something completely new to me and I kind of make the music in my dream. I also react immediately to music and sounds I hear... they make me see and feel certain emotions...
Essensual is about the way we all "shine" on the outside and keep the childhood scars on the inside. What I like about the new songs, is that being produced in a Pop-like fashion, they're a great contrast to the rather gloomy, bittersweet, angry or ironic lyrics (would I ever write cheerful lyrics?). Much peculiar thought lies behind the words... also a certain discomfort and bitterness. And much is about hidden feelings, various thoughts within the psyche, the bad experiences that shape us, thoughts about our real being - thus the title Essensual. It is also, as always, about "getting away"’ from this frustrating everyday life."

-Nebelhexe.
Visit her Official Page!
http://www.nebelhexe.com/index.html

Ei jaksa kirjoittaa mitään omaa tälläkertaa. Maailmassa on liikaa kärsimystä, kipua ja yksinäisiä sieluja. Elämä on aika helvetin syvältä.
Piirrän tällähetkellä ampuhaukkaa (Falco columbarius). Pistän sen ehkä tänne, tai jonnekkin nettiin, jos se onnistuu. Siitä tosin tulee liian vaalea. Mulla ei ole tummanruskeeta. Mulla on ainoastaan paskanruskee kynä ja surkea kuva siitä linnusta. Netissä oli kuva vaalean harmaasta ampuhaukasta, mutta mun kirjassa on lähes musta ampuhaukka naaras. En tiiä...sanotaan sitten että se on vaan haukka, kun en tiiä miltä sen pitäisi näyttää.

The Day Of Massacre.

She had given name by her mother, her name was Fang. She lived in the wood leading peaceful life with her husband, two son's and one daughter. They wasn't ordinary (4-7 wolves) Wolf pack since there wasn't much Gray Wolves (canis lupus) around. Humans had killed so many. "Mum! Brothers are annoying me." Felicia was complaining biting Fang's tail angrily. Felicia was about two months old, she had almost white fur, little much grey here and there.
"You should defence yourself." Fang said and smiled. Felicia nodded and attacked her brothers, Seth and Brandon and they started to whirl arond in the snowy ground.
"Honey, I'll go to get some garbage for us to eat." Fang said to her husband Deathdance and left their nest. When she had travelled for a while she heard a voice she had never heard before. Roaming loud voice. Her curiosity awakened and forced her to take a look. A man, human with chainsaw was killing the trees. "Help us." The tree said just before it died. "Oh no.." Fang stepped back shaking faintly and baring her teeths. Human noticed wolf and startled. "It's going to kill me..." Human said and laid the chainsaw down, taking his rifle. "Leave us! Go away!" Fang growled holding her head and tail high making herself to look as big as she could.
Human shot her, but she didn't die. She whined from sudden pain and stepped back. That human had somekind of weapon what she didn't understand, but it hurted much and she was bleeding. White snow under her turned red. "Why you do things like this?" She whimpered and turned back to look at the human. She showed her teeths again. "Shoot..That thing didn't die!" Human said sweating and shaking and shot another. This time Fang collapsed to the snowy ground. First she felt pain, then she felt how her eyes closed and everything went dark. She was tired and felt giving up. "Don't hurt everyone.." She sighed and then died.
"I killed a wolf! Angry, wild wolf! It was going to kill me but I get it first!" Human yelled at policestation. "Oh my.. Wolves are such a beasts, they should be killed all at once." Police said and they went to look at the dead wolf, what human saw as victory, something what should be proud of. "I killed a wolf. I have power." His brains said.
"It was crazy! I swear it would have killed me!" He lied, or then he was just stupid.
"Good work. I can see that she have cubs somewere. Pups must be as insane as ther alphas. We must kill them all before they attack to the town." One police said and another confirmed: "my wife told that wolves have been intruding in the town and frighten the kids."
"That's it! We must protect our future and our chldren!" And they went to the forest, forest that used to be so peacefull and full of life. Now it was just balefully quiet and dark.
"Where is mum?" Seth asked from his father squirming around nervously. "I don't know.." He said, they all had heard the shots, but no one of them wanted to believe that something had actually happened. "That's it! I'm not waiting! I want to see my mum!" Felicia said and ran in the darkness of forest. "No! Wait!" Deathdance tried to stop her, but Felicia was quick since she was always runing from her mean brothers.
One policemen noticed her and shot quickly. "Come! I foud one!" He yelled to other people and they ran to look at Felicia, the helpless pup. "Ouch..Mum, help me.." She whined and then died.
"Felicia.." Deathdance said and horror of knowing what has happened went trough him. "We must leave our den.. Right now." He said trying to keep his emotions inside. He wanted to attack humans, tear them apart and enjoy the massacre, but he knew that killing them wouldn't bring his daughter and wife back. And he wouldn't even survive because humans had guns.
They lef their den. Brandon and Seth always did what their father said and no one of them said anything, only Brandon whined mournfully and held his head down.
But humans followed their pawprints and soon surrounded and killed them.

I made this epitaph to the Wolf who was brutally killed some day ago at New Year, or before. I'm not sure when it was, because the massacre made me feel sick even thought I did read it till the end.
If you want to help save the wolves by joining or donating to specialized organizations and activist groups that try to help the wolf thrive as a species. Join the Defenders of Wildlife, or the ASPCA or anything similar, and help promote the cause!
Or if you are interested even a little I recommend reading literature. Good and easy book with pictures of these beautiful creatures is Brother Wolf: A Forgotten Promise, by Jim Brandenburg and animal families, Wolves by Jen Green.
Thank you for reading.

XxRAVENxX

Greetings

Hei.
Nimeni on Raven. Olen naispuolinen ihmis-olento. Mutta tosiasiassa olen Susi, osaan lentää sillä omistan Korpin siivet.
Ainakin toivoisin osaavani lentää..
Harrastuksiini kuuluu piirtäminen, lukeminen, musiikin kuuntelu, haaveilu...etc.
Pidän siis ainakin musiikista, ystävistä, kirjoista, ajattelemisesta, punaviinistä, verestä, pimeydestä, sateesta, vampyyreistä, tarinoista, mielikuvituksesta, myytti olennoista, korpeista, luovuudesta, ihmisistä(yleenstä), kissoistani, eläimistä, kahvista...
En pidä kusipäistä, yksinäisyydestä, turkiksista, eläinten rääkkäämisestä, koulusta(aina), masennuksesta(taidan olla aina vähän masentunut), luovuttamisesta, ylipirteistä ihmisistä aamusella.
Lempi kirja on Veren Vangit ja Virgin Suicides.
Lempi elokuva on Veren Vangit, The Crow (1994, mielipiteeni on että The Crow ilman Brandon Lee:tä on perseestä.) Edward Scissorhands, Ginger Snaps, Blood and Chocolate.
Lempi bändit on Dir en Grey, Dismal Euphony, Emilie Autumn, Marilyn Manson ja Miyavi.
Pidän myös sarjakuvista, kuten Loveless, K2, Princess Ai, Nemi, The Tarot Café ja Les Bijoux.

Siinä kai tarpeeks tietoa tähän asti.
Näkemiin.
"There are far worse things awaiting man than death."
-Bram Stoker: Dacula.

XxRavenxX